my journey into the unknown

Once upon a time, a girl prayed for true love.

Her prayer was answered. She learned to love herself

 -Monique Duval (Persistence of Yellow)

hi everyone

how are you all? i hope you are well.

i am very proud to report that today i stuck to my diet 100%. i even went for an hour walk this morning along the river and the beach and it was absolutely breath taking. i have decided that i am going to do it every morning so i can get peace, serenity and feel awakened first thing in the morning. tomorrow i am going to take some photos just to show you how amazing the walk was.

for those who may find walking a bit boring (trust me i use to) here are my survival tips

1) take a bottle of water with you

2) take your ipod, iphone or mp3 player with you- with a motivating playlist that will get you moving.

3)wear sunscreen, comfortable sneakers, comfy exercise pants and bring a hat and sunglasses

4)walk first thing in the morning so it is over and done with.

5) find a place to walk where you feel comfortable, confident and can enjoy the scenery.

ok so here is my promised food diary for today.

breakfast

1 cup of kellogs special k advantage

1/3 cup of skim milk

morning tea

2 lite cruskits

1 tablespoon of lite cottage cheese

lunch

ham and salad wrap with no cheese or mayo (big move for me)

we were out at the shops and instead of getting a greasy burger which i usually would i went to this health shop and got a fresh wrap. quite proud of myself for this one.

afternoon tea

1 tub of nestle no fat yoghurt (passionfruit)

dinner

i piece of lean beef (size of palm) coated in ground black pepper

3 cups of vegetables (i just used the frozen ones because they are easier)

i will admit that it has not been that easy to do this and i probably would not have been able to if Paul hadnt taken these days off to do it with me. i have even been planning in my head how i am going to sneak in some junk food when he goes back to work on wednesday. i think i will be giving him my ATM card so i cant go to the grocery store. if i can just make 4 weeks i will be happy.

if you are wondering why i am eating very low calories at the moment it is because i am trying to shed my first bit of weight off quickly so i can sstart getting my period naturally (hopefully). i do not advise a diet like this for the long haul. it is not manageable. but i am going to slightly increase calouries after i reach 90kg.

for anyone who is having a rough day or is feeling lost in their own skin. i found this author called Marianne Williamson and the following quote is from her book 'a Woman's Worth'. i dedicate this to all you ladies out there. you are beautiful-inside and out. you are amaing. you are inspiring. we get so caught up with our flaws and our hurdles that we forget that we are actually powerful beings and we have so much to offer the world. i constantly find myself battling the anti self-worth disease but i know deep down that i am strong and i am worthy of all the happiness in the world. i don't care what people say to me-how much they try to bring me down or tell me i am not worthy- i know that beneath the surface there is a warrior who is going to come out any second and make the most of the life i have graciously been given.

"What?" you say. "Me, a goddess?" Yes, I say, and don’t act so surprised. You knew when you were little that you were born for something special and no matter what happened to you, that couldn't be erased. The magic could not be drained from your heart any more than Lady Macbeth could wash the guilt from her hands. Sorry to tell you, but you had it right years ago, and then you forgot You were born with a mystical purpose”

-Marianne Williamson

i hope you have a beautiful day.

REMEMBER TO NEVER GIVE UP

SO MUCH LOVE TO YOU ALL XOXOXOXOOX