hi everyone
how are you? i hope you are well.
well i have to admit today has been extremely difficult. i thought that it would start getting better but it gets worse. however, despite all of this- i am not giving up on dieting all together, i just cannot physically do the diet i was on. i was only allowed 1200 calories and when i am doing 1 and a half exercise a day it doesn't mix well. when i was walking this afternoon i was literally about to fall asleep..i felt so weak. and i guess for me exercise has to come before everything else because it is like a medicine for depression and anxiety. so if anyone is up for the challenge- if you can design me a week of a healthy eating plan that is reasonable in calories but also effective in weightloss i will be forever in your debt.
but i am not giving up....
NEVER GIVE UP.
love always,
cat xoxo
my journey through weight loss and emotional rejuvenation. let's do this together!
Wednesday 30 March 2011
Tuesday 29 March 2011
day two- feels like i have been hit by a train.
hi girls.
how are you all? i hope you are well and happy :)
today is day two of my diet and i can say that it has not been easy at all. i decided that i will have one treat a month which will be pizza on a tuesday night (because it is cheap on a tuesday!) and if i dont get any treat i might go mad. but in saying that it is only going to be very occasional. VERY OCCASIONAL. i know in my self that i am feeling really weak, so i have given Paul my ATM card so i cant go to the store and buy the usual crap i would. it sucks that it has come to this but until i get over the
breaking the habit' stage i need to take drastic measures.
i guess i have moment where i feel really determined and feel like i can fight the world, and then i just have others where i lose all willpower and find it harder to stop myself from going to the fridge. i know what i want to achieve and i know how i have to achieve them, the journey just seems so far away and sometimes i think
'can i actually do this'. i know i am suppose to be all encouraging and what not- but i am having quite the off day today. i guess i am having withdrawls or something.
breakfast:
1 cup of kellogs special k with 1/4 cup of milk
small handful of blueberries
snack:
two lite cruskits with 1 tablespoon of cottage cheese
lunch:
ham and salad wrap
afternoon tea:
1 cup of fresh fruit salad.
dinner:
pizza :( - but i cant have it for another month now so i did enjoy it-sort of...
exercise:
1 1/4 hour walk
30 situps
20 pushups
i found the following video on youtube. it is a simple ab workout which does not require any equipment-just you and your core :)
anyway girls, i hope you have a beautiful day :)
lots of love,
cat xo
how are you all? i hope you are well and happy :)
today is day two of my diet and i can say that it has not been easy at all. i decided that i will have one treat a month which will be pizza on a tuesday night (because it is cheap on a tuesday!) and if i dont get any treat i might go mad. but in saying that it is only going to be very occasional. VERY OCCASIONAL. i know in my self that i am feeling really weak, so i have given Paul my ATM card so i cant go to the store and buy the usual crap i would. it sucks that it has come to this but until i get over the
breaking the habit' stage i need to take drastic measures.
i guess i have moment where i feel really determined and feel like i can fight the world, and then i just have others where i lose all willpower and find it harder to stop myself from going to the fridge. i know what i want to achieve and i know how i have to achieve them, the journey just seems so far away and sometimes i think
'can i actually do this'. i know i am suppose to be all encouraging and what not- but i am having quite the off day today. i guess i am having withdrawls or something.
breakfast:
1 cup of kellogs special k with 1/4 cup of milk
small handful of blueberries
snack:
two lite cruskits with 1 tablespoon of cottage cheese
lunch:
ham and salad wrap
afternoon tea:
1 cup of fresh fruit salad.
dinner:
pizza :( - but i cant have it for another month now so i did enjoy it-sort of...
exercise:
1 1/4 hour walk
30 situps
20 pushups
i found the following video on youtube. it is a simple ab workout which does not require any equipment-just you and your core :)
anyway girls, i hope you have a beautiful day :)
lots of love,
cat xo
Monday 28 March 2011
my journey into the unknown
Once upon a time, a girl prayed for true love.
Her prayer was answered. She learned to love herself
-Monique Duval (Persistence of Yellow)
hi everyone
how are you all? i hope you are well.
i am very proud to report that today i stuck to my diet 100%. i even went for an hour walk this morning along the river and the beach and it was absolutely breath taking. i have decided that i am going to do it every morning so i can get peace, serenity and feel awakened first thing in the morning. tomorrow i am going to take some photos just to show you how amazing the walk was.
for those who may find walking a bit boring (trust me i use to) here are my survival tips
1) take a bottle of water with you
2) take your ipod, iphone or mp3 player with you- with a motivating playlist that will get you moving.
3)wear sunscreen, comfortable sneakers, comfy exercise pants and bring a hat and sunglasses
4)walk first thing in the morning so it is over and done with.
5) find a place to walk where you feel comfortable, confident and can enjoy the scenery.
ok so here is my promised food diary for today.
breakfast
1 cup of kellogs special k advantage
1/3 cup of skim milk
morning tea
2 lite cruskits
1 tablespoon of lite cottage cheese
lunch
ham and salad wrap with no cheese or mayo (big move for me)
we were out at the shops and instead of getting a greasy burger which i usually would i went to this health shop and got a fresh wrap. quite proud of myself for this one.
afternoon tea
1 tub of nestle no fat yoghurt (passionfruit)
dinner
i piece of lean beef (size of palm) coated in ground black pepper
3 cups of vegetables (i just used the frozen ones because they are easier)
i will admit that it has not been that easy to do this and i probably would not have been able to if Paul hadnt taken these days off to do it with me. i have even been planning in my head how i am going to sneak in some junk food when he goes back to work on wednesday. i think i will be giving him my ATM card so i cant go to the grocery store. if i can just make 4 weeks i will be happy.
if you are wondering why i am eating very low calories at the moment it is because i am trying to shed my first bit of weight off quickly so i can sstart getting my period naturally (hopefully). i do not advise a diet like this for the long haul. it is not manageable. but i am going to slightly increase calouries after i reach 90kg.
for anyone who is having a rough day or is feeling lost in their own skin. i found this author called Marianne Williamson and the following quote is from her book 'a Woman's Worth'. i dedicate this to all you ladies out there. you are beautiful-inside and out. you are amaing. you are inspiring. we get so caught up with our flaws and our hurdles that we forget that we are actually powerful beings and we have so much to offer the world. i constantly find myself battling the anti self-worth disease but i know deep down that i am strong and i am worthy of all the happiness in the world. i don't care what people say to me-how much they try to bring me down or tell me i am not worthy- i know that beneath the surface there is a warrior who is going to come out any second and make the most of the life i have graciously been given.
"What?" you say. "Me, a goddess?" Yes, I say, and don’t act so surprised. You knew when you were little that you were born for something special and no matter what happened to you, that couldn't be erased. The magic could not be drained from your heart any more than Lady Macbeth could wash the guilt from her hands. Sorry to tell you, but you had it right years ago, and then you forgot You were born with a mystical purpose”
-Marianne Williamson
i hope you have a beautiful day.
REMEMBER TO NEVER GIVE UP
SO MUCH LOVE TO YOU ALL XOXOXOXOOX
Sunday 27 March 2011
put on your joggers and lets get physical.
hi everyone,
how are you all? i hope you are well.
well i have not followed my diet as strickly as i should have but i did ok. i know that i stuffed up this evening because i went out in the middle of the day and took longer than expected and i did not have lunch before i went, so when i got home i was so hungry i could have sworn my boyfriend looked alot like a hamburger!
but here is what i ate (because i promised i would be honest)
breakfast:
1 cup of special k advantage with 1/4 cup of skim milk.
snack:
1 small no fat yoghurt (nestle passionfruit)
late lunch:
toasted ham and cheese wrap
dinner:
2x homemade pizzas on pita bread
ham, cheese, salami (VERY BAD), pinapple, lite sour cream (ALSO VERY BAD) and sweet chilli sauce
i can recognise why i stuffed up though. i have to eat properly for breakfast, morning tea, lunch, afternoon tea and dinner or else my blood sugars go out of control and i end up wanting to eat everything in sight. so tomorrow, i am going to be more prepared and hopefully i can make an even better progress. but even though i stuffed up a little bit- my boyfriend restrained me from eating a large bag of chips and a chocolate bar from the supermarket- so without him i probably would have done alot worse.
tomorrow i am going to go meet some girls for a walk along the river, and then paul and i are going to take ziggy to the doggy beach where i will do a bit more exercise. i was seriously considering joining a gym, but i am going to see if i can do it the cheaper way- with my sneakers and full body resistence. tomorrow my exercise plan will be this:
1hr walk
15 situps
20 push ups (the knee version for now)
2x 30 second planks
30 Lunges
30 squats
20 bicep curls
20 tricep extensions
20 quad knee and arm extension
some strength training (resistence training) exercises you can do at home courtesy of (http://www.mydr.com.au/). just do what you can. if it starts to get really painful stop immediately. and dont forget to stretch afterwards :)
Lunges — to strengthen your hamstrings (back of thigh), quadriceps (front of thigh), gastrocnemius (calf) and gluteus maximus (bottom) muscles. Stand with your feet shoulder width apart, hands on hips. (Optional: hold a small hand-weight in each hand, with your hands by your sides.)
1 rep = step one leg a generous stride length forward and bend this knee to make a right angle between your thigh and your shin. Allow the heel of the back foot to lift off the ground as you bend the back knee towards the floor. Hold for a few seconds, then return to standing upright. Do the same movement, this time moving the opposite leg to the front. Note: keep your back straight and head upright throughout; make sure that your front leg does not bend beyond forming a right angle between your thigh and shin, that is, don’t allow your front knee to extend over your foot.
Wall push ups — to strengthen your chest, arm, shoulder and upper back muscles. Stand facing a solid wall at arm’s length, with feet shoulder width apart. Place the palms of your hands flat on the wall, at shoulder height. Before starting, step your feet back a few inches.
1 rep = slowly lean closer to the wall and let your hands take some of your weight by allowing your elbows to bend. Keep your back and neck straight and in line with your legs; avoid bending at the hips. Lean as close to the wall as is comfortable and hold for a few seconds, then straighten your elbows as you return towards the upright position. Remember to keep your abdominals contracted to prevent your back from arching. Note: this exercise is really a standing ‘push up’. The exercise requires more effort the further that your feet are back from the wall. As you gain strength you may like to progress to a knee push up, which is performed on the floor in a face-down position, and then to a standard push up.
Squats — to strengthen your quadriceps (front of thigh), gluteus maximus (bottom) and soleus (deep calf) muscles. Stand with your feet shoulder width apart. (Optional: hold a small hand-weight in each hand.)
1 rep = slowly bend at the hips and knees, lowering yourself until your thighs are parallel with the floor. Slowly return to standing upright.
Biceps curl — to strengthen your biceps muscle (at the front of your upper arm). Stand comfortably, with your feet shoulder width apart, and hold a small hand-weight in one hand, palm facing to the front.
1 rep = bend your elbow so that you raise the hand-weight to your shoulder, stopping short of fully flexing your elbow. Return to the starting position by slowly lowering your forearm. Avoid fully straightening your elbow. Keep your wrist straight throughout.
Triceps extension — to strengthen your triceps muscle (at the back of your upper arm). Lie on your back on a floormat with your knees bent and feet flat on the floor. Hold a small hand-weight in one hand, at arm’s length above your shoulder. Use your free hand throughout this exercise to support the upper arm that’s being worked, aiming to keep it in a vertical position, perpendicular to the floor. Avoid holding the weight over your face or head.
1 rep = slowly lower the weight, stopping just before your elbow is fully bent (flexed). Return the weight to the starting position.
Abdominal crunches — to strengthen your rectus abdominus muscles (at the front of your abdomen). Lie on your back on a floormat with your knees bent and feet flat on the floor, shoulder width apart. Rest your forearms crossed over your chest with your hands on your shoulders. Tuck your chin into your chest to ensure the back of your neck is lengthened.
1 rep = raise your head and upper back off the floor as far as is comfortable, aiming to raise yourself to your knees. Concentrate on using the muscles at the front of your abdomen to achieve this movement, rather than bending your neck and upper back excessively. Hold for a few seconds, then gently lower your head and upper back to the floor.
Quad knee and arm extension — to strengthen your upper, middle and lower back muscles. On a floormat, position yourself on all fours (on your hands and knees) with your back flat and parallel to the floor. Focus your eyes on the mat to keep your neck straight.
1 rep = while keeping your head, neck and back in a straight line, slowly raise one arm and the opposite leg off the ground, so that the elevated limbs are in line with your torso. Hold for a few seconds, then lower your limbs to the floor again. Repeat using the opposite limbs. Hold your abdominal muscles tight to prevent your back from arching.
alot of people think you need to pay all this money for personal trainers and gym memberships and yes they may be awesome to have- if you are poor like me it does not mean we cannot achieve the same results. in fact research has shown that resistence training is effective in women with pcos because it is safer on the body for weightloss. i am certainly not an expert but if doing resistence training means i dont have to spend a fortune on a gym membership i am going to give it a go. if you are a bit nervous about exercise or find it hard to get motivated start off by doing 15 minute walks twice a day and slowly increase it. any exercise is better than nothing.
well my girls goodluck with the exercise. we can do this!!!!!!!!!!!
lots of love,
how are you all? i hope you are well.
well i have not followed my diet as strickly as i should have but i did ok. i know that i stuffed up this evening because i went out in the middle of the day and took longer than expected and i did not have lunch before i went, so when i got home i was so hungry i could have sworn my boyfriend looked alot like a hamburger!
but here is what i ate (because i promised i would be honest)
breakfast:
1 cup of special k advantage with 1/4 cup of skim milk.
snack:
1 small no fat yoghurt (nestle passionfruit)
late lunch:
toasted ham and cheese wrap
dinner:
2x homemade pizzas on pita bread
ham, cheese, salami (VERY BAD), pinapple, lite sour cream (ALSO VERY BAD) and sweet chilli sauce
i can recognise why i stuffed up though. i have to eat properly for breakfast, morning tea, lunch, afternoon tea and dinner or else my blood sugars go out of control and i end up wanting to eat everything in sight. so tomorrow, i am going to be more prepared and hopefully i can make an even better progress. but even though i stuffed up a little bit- my boyfriend restrained me from eating a large bag of chips and a chocolate bar from the supermarket- so without him i probably would have done alot worse.
tomorrow i am going to go meet some girls for a walk along the river, and then paul and i are going to take ziggy to the doggy beach where i will do a bit more exercise. i was seriously considering joining a gym, but i am going to see if i can do it the cheaper way- with my sneakers and full body resistence. tomorrow my exercise plan will be this:
1hr walk
15 situps
20 push ups (the knee version for now)
2x 30 second planks
30 Lunges
30 squats
20 bicep curls
20 tricep extensions
20 quad knee and arm extension
some strength training (resistence training) exercises you can do at home courtesy of (http://www.mydr.com.au/). just do what you can. if it starts to get really painful stop immediately. and dont forget to stretch afterwards :)
Lunges — to strengthen your hamstrings (back of thigh), quadriceps (front of thigh), gastrocnemius (calf) and gluteus maximus (bottom) muscles. Stand with your feet shoulder width apart, hands on hips. (Optional: hold a small hand-weight in each hand, with your hands by your sides.)
1 rep = step one leg a generous stride length forward and bend this knee to make a right angle between your thigh and your shin. Allow the heel of the back foot to lift off the ground as you bend the back knee towards the floor. Hold for a few seconds, then return to standing upright. Do the same movement, this time moving the opposite leg to the front. Note: keep your back straight and head upright throughout; make sure that your front leg does not bend beyond forming a right angle between your thigh and shin, that is, don’t allow your front knee to extend over your foot.
Wall push ups — to strengthen your chest, arm, shoulder and upper back muscles. Stand facing a solid wall at arm’s length, with feet shoulder width apart. Place the palms of your hands flat on the wall, at shoulder height. Before starting, step your feet back a few inches.
1 rep = slowly lean closer to the wall and let your hands take some of your weight by allowing your elbows to bend. Keep your back and neck straight and in line with your legs; avoid bending at the hips. Lean as close to the wall as is comfortable and hold for a few seconds, then straighten your elbows as you return towards the upright position. Remember to keep your abdominals contracted to prevent your back from arching. Note: this exercise is really a standing ‘push up’. The exercise requires more effort the further that your feet are back from the wall. As you gain strength you may like to progress to a knee push up, which is performed on the floor in a face-down position, and then to a standard push up.
1 rep = slowly bend at the hips and knees, lowering yourself until your thighs are parallel with the floor. Slowly return to standing upright.
Biceps curl — to strengthen your biceps muscle (at the front of your upper arm). Stand comfortably, with your feet shoulder width apart, and hold a small hand-weight in one hand, palm facing to the front.
1 rep = bend your elbow so that you raise the hand-weight to your shoulder, stopping short of fully flexing your elbow. Return to the starting position by slowly lowering your forearm. Avoid fully straightening your elbow. Keep your wrist straight throughout.
1 rep = slowly lower the weight, stopping just before your elbow is fully bent (flexed). Return the weight to the starting position.
Abdominal crunches — to strengthen your rectus abdominus muscles (at the front of your abdomen). Lie on your back on a floormat with your knees bent and feet flat on the floor, shoulder width apart. Rest your forearms crossed over your chest with your hands on your shoulders. Tuck your chin into your chest to ensure the back of your neck is lengthened.
1 rep = raise your head and upper back off the floor as far as is comfortable, aiming to raise yourself to your knees. Concentrate on using the muscles at the front of your abdomen to achieve this movement, rather than bending your neck and upper back excessively. Hold for a few seconds, then gently lower your head and upper back to the floor.
Quad knee and arm extension — to strengthen your upper, middle and lower back muscles. On a floormat, position yourself on all fours (on your hands and knees) with your back flat and parallel to the floor. Focus your eyes on the mat to keep your neck straight.
1 rep = while keeping your head, neck and back in a straight line, slowly raise one arm and the opposite leg off the ground, so that the elevated limbs are in line with your torso. Hold for a few seconds, then lower your limbs to the floor again. Repeat using the opposite limbs. Hold your abdominal muscles tight to prevent your back from arching.
alot of people think you need to pay all this money for personal trainers and gym memberships and yes they may be awesome to have- if you are poor like me it does not mean we cannot achieve the same results. in fact research has shown that resistence training is effective in women with pcos because it is safer on the body for weightloss. i am certainly not an expert but if doing resistence training means i dont have to spend a fortune on a gym membership i am going to give it a go. if you are a bit nervous about exercise or find it hard to get motivated start off by doing 15 minute walks twice a day and slowly increase it. any exercise is better than nothing.
well my girls goodluck with the exercise. we can do this!!!!!!!!!!!
lots of love,
cat xoxo
Saturday 26 March 2011
tomorrow when the war began...against food!!!!
hi everyone,
how are you? i hope you are well :).
i know i have been saying for ages that i am going to start my diet. well i PROMISE you all that i am going to start it tomorrow WITHOUT fail. i am sick of making broken promises to myself and not doing what i tell all of you girls what i am going to do either. i have also made my boyfriend (who i am sure loves me very much right now) do it with me, so over the next couple of days we are going to really fight our urges for crappy food. in a way i feel like an addict and i guess maybe i am one. but i am going to fight it!!! who's gonna join me?? tomorrow i will have more details about my starting weight and measurements etc. and i will also put up what i eat (even if it is bad).
i found this interesting article about food addictions. if you are an over-eater have a look at this.
i definately know that i am a food addict. i will hide bags of chips in my bag so the people i live with wont see me bring them into the house and i will sit in my room (with the doors shut) and eat them all. food is my comfort and i actually look forward to eating something naughty moreso than i would going to watch a movie or go on a trip overseas. thats how i know i have serious eating issues. i need to learn to eat to live not live to eat. a counsellor once asked me to think of the most painful experience i had gone through (i had many to think of but eventually thought of one situation that hit me pretty hard) she then reminded me that after this pain- i recovered because women are stronger than we realise. and if i could recover from something that painful- i can definately fight my food addiction. So if you feel weak (and most of us who are just starting out on healthy eating plans are) reminds yourself every second that you lose faith that you are STRONG and NOTHING can stop you from achieving your goals. i have these skinny jeans that i brought several years ago, and i am going to hang them up in my room because next year i am going to fit into them.
The jump is so frightening between where I am and where I want to be.
Because of all I may become-I will close my eyes and leap.- Mary Anne Radmacher
Because of all I may become-I will close my eyes and leap.- Mary Anne Radmacher
no more excuses. the time is now. let's do this!!!!!
good luck to everyone. i will keep you informed.
love to you all xoxoxo
Thursday 24 March 2011
you're worthy...everyone woman is.
hi everyone,
how are we all? i hope you are well.
today i attended this group workshop for women to help build confidence etc. and the counsellor who was talking to us shared with us a story about a life coach and what she had to say. it went a little bit like this.
lifecoach- * holds up $100 bill* who wants this $100?
(everyone puts their hands up)
lifecoach- *throws $100 bill onto ground and stamps on it* who still wants this $100?
(everyone puts their hands up)
lifecoach- *scrunches $100 bill up in hands* who stills wants this $100?
(everyone puts their hands up)
lifecoach- *spits on $100 bill* who STILL wants this $100
(everyone puts their hands up)
lifecoach- 'you see. no matter how much someone spits, stamps on, or tries to devalue this $100 bill. it is still worth its original value. it is the same with you women. noone can devalue your worth.
i almost cried when she shared this with us. it is so true. i think when you are overweight, you end up convincing yourself that you are not worthy, you are not beautiful, you are not valued... but you/we are. if there is someone in your life who makes you feel worthless or makes you feel that you aren't good enough- i strongly encourage you to get rid of them. no matter how hard it is, it will be worth it in the end. you CANNOT move forward or suceed in your weightloss journey if you have someone putting you down.
i once was interested in this guy, and we were almost about to start dating and then he said to me 'look i think you're really pretty. but i can't date you until you lose about 30kg' at the time i was really hurt and it broke my heart. but now i look back on it and think 'what a complete douchebag! i am so lucky he is no longer is my life. and now i am dating someone who loves me exactly as i am and only really supports my weight loss so that i can get pregnant. so there are good guys out there. sometimes you have to kiss a whole lot of toads to find your prince :).
love to you all,
cat xoxooxoxox
how are we all? i hope you are well.
today i attended this group workshop for women to help build confidence etc. and the counsellor who was talking to us shared with us a story about a life coach and what she had to say. it went a little bit like this.
lifecoach- * holds up $100 bill* who wants this $100?
(everyone puts their hands up)
lifecoach- *throws $100 bill onto ground and stamps on it* who still wants this $100?
(everyone puts their hands up)
lifecoach- *scrunches $100 bill up in hands* who stills wants this $100?
(everyone puts their hands up)
lifecoach- *spits on $100 bill* who STILL wants this $100
(everyone puts their hands up)
lifecoach- 'you see. no matter how much someone spits, stamps on, or tries to devalue this $100 bill. it is still worth its original value. it is the same with you women. noone can devalue your worth.
i almost cried when she shared this with us. it is so true. i think when you are overweight, you end up convincing yourself that you are not worthy, you are not beautiful, you are not valued... but you/we are. if there is someone in your life who makes you feel worthless or makes you feel that you aren't good enough- i strongly encourage you to get rid of them. no matter how hard it is, it will be worth it in the end. you CANNOT move forward or suceed in your weightloss journey if you have someone putting you down.
i once was interested in this guy, and we were almost about to start dating and then he said to me 'look i think you're really pretty. but i can't date you until you lose about 30kg' at the time i was really hurt and it broke my heart. but now i look back on it and think 'what a complete douchebag! i am so lucky he is no longer is my life. and now i am dating someone who loves me exactly as i am and only really supports my weight loss so that i can get pregnant. so there are good guys out there. sometimes you have to kiss a whole lot of toads to find your prince :).
love to you all,
cat xoxooxoxox
baby baby baby.
hello there ladies,
how are you today? i hope you are well.
ii have created a fashion set to give you an idea on what my favourite things are at the moment. some are exensive- some aren't. but i just love these things, so i hope you can enjoy them as well. hopefully one day i will be skinny enough to wear what i want :) hopefully.
how are you today? i hope you are well.
ii have created a fashion set to give you an idea on what my favourite things are at the moment. some are exensive- some aren't. but i just love these things, so i hope you can enjoy them as well. hopefully one day i will be skinny enough to wear what i want :) hopefully.
THE COSMETIC MARKET :: Makeup :: Nails :: OPI Just Tea-sing!
i wanted to talk a bit about fertility. i know that you pcos girls who are struggling with weight, or irregular periods would know where i am coming from. so i am just going to get this out there... have you ever wanted a baby so much that it is all you can think about? well this is me at the moment. all i want is a baby. and i convince myself every month that i am pregnant and when i take the dreaded pregnancy test- it always come back negative. i know that it is impossible for me to get pregnant at the moment- i don't ovulate and i dont get any periods at the moment. to some girls not having a period would seem like a dream- for me it is the opposite. i want to have my period (without taking the pill) so i know i am ovulating again. it is so unfair. but i know that things will get better once i am healthy and i can really face the challenge then. so if any of you girls are in the same boat my advice is- focus on getting healthy before even thinking about having a family. otherwise it is a heartbreaking experience. and i would not wish that upon anyone.
dad- if you are reading this- i do apologise for the girl talk. but i do hope i can give you some grandkiddies soon :)
well my girls. stay positive. never give up. and remember- us girls have to stick together :)
love to you all xxoxoxoxo
i wanted to talk a bit about fertility. i know that you pcos girls who are struggling with weight, or irregular periods would know where i am coming from. so i am just going to get this out there... have you ever wanted a baby so much that it is all you can think about? well this is me at the moment. all i want is a baby. and i convince myself every month that i am pregnant and when i take the dreaded pregnancy test- it always come back negative. i know that it is impossible for me to get pregnant at the moment- i don't ovulate and i dont get any periods at the moment. to some girls not having a period would seem like a dream- for me it is the opposite. i want to have my period (without taking the pill) so i know i am ovulating again. it is so unfair. but i know that things will get better once i am healthy and i can really face the challenge then. so if any of you girls are in the same boat my advice is- focus on getting healthy before even thinking about having a family. otherwise it is a heartbreaking experience. and i would not wish that upon anyone.
dad- if you are reading this- i do apologise for the girl talk. but i do hope i can give you some grandkiddies soon :)
well my girls. stay positive. never give up. and remember- us girls have to stick together :)
love to you all xxoxoxoxo
Wednesday 23 March 2011
let your colours burst...
hello lovely ladies,
how are we all today? to the ones who have had a bad day today- i dedicate this blog to you (you know who you are)...
i am usually into rock, alternative, indie music but there is a song i love by miss katy perry called 'firework' (i am sure everyone has heard it)
i personally find this song inspiring because we all have a spark and my sister once said to me when i was having a really bad day that i need to find my spark. we all have a spark- you have one i promise. it's inside you and it needs to come out. it doesn't matter where you are in your life, what struggles you have ahead of you or what size your clothes are, you are a firework and you should be proud of who you are. before you succeed in your weightloss journey you have to start loving yourself. thats the hardest lesson i have had to learm- and i am still learning.
so my computer is being really weird so i am going to say goodnight.
love to you all xoxoxo
how are we all today? to the ones who have had a bad day today- i dedicate this blog to you (you know who you are)...
i am usually into rock, alternative, indie music but there is a song i love by miss katy perry called 'firework' (i am sure everyone has heard it)
i personally find this song inspiring because we all have a spark and my sister once said to me when i was having a really bad day that i need to find my spark. we all have a spark- you have one i promise. it's inside you and it needs to come out. it doesn't matter where you are in your life, what struggles you have ahead of you or what size your clothes are, you are a firework and you should be proud of who you are. before you succeed in your weightloss journey you have to start loving yourself. thats the hardest lesson i have had to learm- and i am still learning.
so my computer is being really weird so i am going to say goodnight.
love to you all xoxoxo
Tuesday 22 March 2011
happiness hit her...
well hello my lovely ones
how are we all today? i hope you are well.
this morning i woke up again at 6 and went for a 35 minute walk with ziggy. to anyone who struggles with exercise i suggest that you get up first thing in the morning, make sure your ipod/mp3 player is charged and ready to go and just go for it. it is so much easier to it over and done with first thing in the morning because you can just relax for the rest of the day.
thankyou girls for all your advice about being prepared with meals. i definatley have to do that in fact one day a week i will just cook up a storm and portion the meals out and freeze them. that way if i have a day where i have no energy i have no excuse to go to mcdonalds :)
like my dear friend Kristina, i want to talk about rewards. i think rewarding yourself for all the hard work you have done is absolutely essential. it alsogives you a bit of an incentive to keep pressing forward and reaching those goals. if you are like me and have a lot of weight to lose and it feels too overwhelming sometimes just take it kilo by kilo (or pound for my american ladies) and give yourself small goals along the way. but don't ever feel discouraged. we can do this together. and you know what? if you have a bad day- thats cool. i continue to have bad days. but i am making small little changes that will make it easier to start making the big ones. so here is my goal and rewards chart. EVERY WEIGHT LOSS LADY NEEDS ONE!!!!
GOAL REWARD
-10 KG My Sister is giving me $100
-15KG Manicure
-20KG Manicure and pedicure
-25KG Manicure, pedicure and massage
-30KG Buy myself a handbag
-35KG Manicure and pedicure
-40KG Get my hair done-cut, colour etc
-45KG Facial
-50KG Manicure and pedicure
-55KG Engagement ring
-60KG New wardrobe, complete make-over
Trip to America
if you havent guessed i really love getting manicures but it something i never do for myself because i feel guilty spending money on myself. but during my weight loss journey i am going to make it a lovely reward for myself.
well everyone i hope you have an awesome day. hope you are going well with your journeys :)
love, cat xoxo
how are we all today? i hope you are well.
this morning i woke up again at 6 and went for a 35 minute walk with ziggy. to anyone who struggles with exercise i suggest that you get up first thing in the morning, make sure your ipod/mp3 player is charged and ready to go and just go for it. it is so much easier to it over and done with first thing in the morning because you can just relax for the rest of the day.
thankyou girls for all your advice about being prepared with meals. i definatley have to do that in fact one day a week i will just cook up a storm and portion the meals out and freeze them. that way if i have a day where i have no energy i have no excuse to go to mcdonalds :)
like my dear friend Kristina, i want to talk about rewards. i think rewarding yourself for all the hard work you have done is absolutely essential. it alsogives you a bit of an incentive to keep pressing forward and reaching those goals. if you are like me and have a lot of weight to lose and it feels too overwhelming sometimes just take it kilo by kilo (or pound for my american ladies) and give yourself small goals along the way. but don't ever feel discouraged. we can do this together. and you know what? if you have a bad day- thats cool. i continue to have bad days. but i am making small little changes that will make it easier to start making the big ones. so here is my goal and rewards chart. EVERY WEIGHT LOSS LADY NEEDS ONE!!!!
GOAL REWARD
-10 KG My Sister is giving me $100
-15KG Manicure
-20KG Manicure and pedicure
-25KG Manicure, pedicure and massage
-30KG Buy myself a handbag
-35KG Manicure and pedicure
-40KG Get my hair done-cut, colour etc
-45KG Facial
-50KG Manicure and pedicure
-55KG Engagement ring
-60KG New wardrobe, complete make-over
Trip to America
if you havent guessed i really love getting manicures but it something i never do for myself because i feel guilty spending money on myself. but during my weight loss journey i am going to make it a lovely reward for myself.
well everyone i hope you have an awesome day. hope you are going well with your journeys :)
love, cat xoxo
Monday 21 March 2011
another day another failure at dieting...
hi everyone,
how are you? i hope you are all well. well if you haven't guessed already, i failed my diet today. i started off really well i even went for a 40 minute walk with ziggy first thing this morning but then i went to work and was so tired when i finished we ended up eating maccas for dinner. so-the lesson being. have dinner prepared before going to work so i can just reheat it when i get home.
although i am incredibly disapointed in myself, i will just pick myself up, dust myself off and try again. thats all i can do. no point in beating myself up over it.
i have put up my motivation for weightloss...i love fashion and i want to be able to wear what i want not what i have to because its the only thing that fits me. so i have posted a few examples of what my wardrobe will look like soon. i cant wait :) gotta keep my eye on the prize.
well my dears, i am off to bed because i am so tired. i hope you are well and had a beautiful day xoxoxo
how are you? i hope you are all well. well if you haven't guessed already, i failed my diet today. i started off really well i even went for a 40 minute walk with ziggy first thing this morning but then i went to work and was so tired when i finished we ended up eating maccas for dinner. so-the lesson being. have dinner prepared before going to work so i can just reheat it when i get home.
although i am incredibly disapointed in myself, i will just pick myself up, dust myself off and try again. thats all i can do. no point in beating myself up over it.
i have put up my motivation for weightloss...i love fashion and i want to be able to wear what i want not what i have to because its the only thing that fits me. so i have posted a few examples of what my wardrobe will look like soon. i cant wait :) gotta keep my eye on the prize.
well my dears, i am off to bed because i am so tired. i hope you are well and had a beautiful day xoxoxo
Sunday 20 March 2011
the night before the diet begins
ok so i am basically having my 'last supper' meal before tomorrow arrives and i have to go on my diet (or healthy eating lifestyle change as my mum would put it). i love food so much and i am going to be sad to say goodbye to all of the yumminess that is carbs, sugar and saturated fats... but i also want to look good in pair of skinny jeans so i have to do this! i can't tell you how many times i have said to my boyfriend, 'ok babe tomorrow is it! i am starting my diet tomorrow without fail' and when tomorrow comes i am already half way through my big tin of pringles! so my challenge is don't allow excuses to stop you from getting where you want to be. i am going to try my absolute hardest to not cheat and rid my life of food that is just making me feel worse about myself in the long run. if i could write up a pros and cons list to eating junk food- i know that the only pro would be 'it tastes good' and the rest would be cons. i cant just keep letting tomorrow pass me by. the more i put it off the harder it becomes to lose and the longer it will take. so come on girls! who's gonna do it with me?!!!! WE CAN DO IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i will let you know how i go tomorrow :)
stay tuned.
love,
cat xoxo
i will let you know how i go tomorrow :)
stay tuned.
love,
cat xoxo
Saturday 19 March 2011
the girl i wish i could be...
Hi everyone
how are you all? i hope you are well and smiling heaps today :)
today i went to the beach with paul and ziggy and we had a beautiful time. ziggy especially enjoyed splashing around in the water and making friends with all the other doggies.
tonight paul and i had a dinner at friend's house and it was so lovely. yum yum. however, afterwards we were suppose to go out to a few pubs and let loose a bit. i was so looking forward to doing it until that horrible voice in my head told me not to because i always end up feeling like the fattest girl in the room. and it is not a nice feeling at all. i just wish i could be the confident,sexy, funky girl that i want to be. i wish i could wear what i want and not feel held back by my weight. and i know that the people i hang out with, especially my boyfriend could not care less if i was the size of a house! but i feel so embarrassed sometimes. it really is an awful way to feel.
i found these lyrics to a song which is so inspiring to women. it is called 'beautiful flower' by india arie
well good night my beautiful flowers. i hope you all look in the mirror today and say to yourselves 'yeah- i am beautiful!'
love ,
cat xoxoxo
how are you all? i hope you are well and smiling heaps today :)
today i went to the beach with paul and ziggy and we had a beautiful time. ziggy especially enjoyed splashing around in the water and making friends with all the other doggies.
tonight paul and i had a dinner at friend's house and it was so lovely. yum yum. however, afterwards we were suppose to go out to a few pubs and let loose a bit. i was so looking forward to doing it until that horrible voice in my head told me not to because i always end up feeling like the fattest girl in the room. and it is not a nice feeling at all. i just wish i could be the confident,sexy, funky girl that i want to be. i wish i could wear what i want and not feel held back by my weight. and i know that the people i hang out with, especially my boyfriend could not care less if i was the size of a house! but i feel so embarrassed sometimes. it really is an awful way to feel.
i found these lyrics to a song which is so inspiring to women. it is called 'beautiful flower' by india arie
This is a song for every girl who's ever been through something she thought she couldn't make it through, yeah
I sing these words because I was that that girl too
Wanting something better than this but who do I turn to?
Now we're moving from the darkness into the light
This is the defining moment of our lives
Cause you're beautiful like a flower
More valuable than a diamond
You are powerful like a fire
You can heal the world with your mind
I sing these words because I was that that girl too
Wanting something better than this but who do I turn to?
Now we're moving from the darkness into the light
This is the defining moment of our lives
Cause you're beautiful like a flower
More valuable than a diamond
You are powerful like a fire
You can heal the world with your mind
And there is nothing in the world that you cannot do
When you believe in you
Who are beautiful
Yeah you, who are brilliant
Yeah you, who are powerful
Yeah you, who are resilient
This is a song for every girl who feels that she is not special
Cause she don't look like a supermodel, Coke bottle
The next time the radio tells you to shake your money maker
Shake your head and tell them, tell 'em you're a leader
Now we're moving from the darkness into the light
This is the defining moment of our lives, Yeah
Cause you're beautiful like a flower
More valuable than a diamond
You are powerful like a fire
You can heal the world with your mind
And there is nothing in the world that you cannot do
When you believe in you
Who are beautiful
Yeah you, who are brilliant
Yeah you, who are powerful
Yeah you, who are resilient
When you believe in you
Who are beautiful
Yeah you, who are brilliant
Yeah you, who are powerful
Yeah you, who are resilient
This is a song for every girl who feels that she is not special
Cause she don't look like a supermodel, Coke bottle
The next time the radio tells you to shake your money maker
Shake your head and tell them, tell 'em you're a leader
Now we're moving from the darkness into the light
This is the defining moment of our lives, Yeah
Cause you're beautiful like a flower
More valuable than a diamond
You are powerful like a fire
You can heal the world with your mind
And there is nothing in the world that you cannot do
When you believe in you
Who are beautiful
Yeah you, who are brilliant
Yeah you, who are powerful
Yeah you, who are resilient
well good night my beautiful flowers. i hope you all look in the mirror today and say to yourselves 'yeah- i am beautiful!'
love ,
cat xoxoxo
Friday 18 March 2011
challenge for the brave.
hi everyone.
i hope you are all well and happy :)
on monday i went for a glucose tolerance test. the glucose drink that you have to down in 5 minutes was absolutely disgusting but i can say with much relief that i ado not have diabetes. phew! but in saying that- having pcos means you are at great risk of getting pcos so i am going to lose weight as a prevention.
i am starting a detox on monday- any girls who want to join let me know and we can do it together. i am doing it with a very nice friend of mine, sylvie which is comforting because i am a bit nervous about it all. i suck on diets- yet alone a detox. basically the detox (thanks to kristina who has given me all the awesome information) i am cutting out wheat, dairy, sugar and junk food for 2 weeks. it is a test to see if your body is sensitive to particular foods. but i am also doing it to relieve my poor body of all the crap i have put in it for the past few years. i should be treating it with more respect-since it is the only one i have and its not like a car which you can trade in a get a new one. i just have to keep restoring my body back to good health no matter what barriers i have or what excuses i try to use on myself.
challenge one: at least 30 min exercise every day next week
challenge two: find something you like about yourself and excentuate that feature eg. if you have nice eyes, focus on wearing some eyeshadow and some mascara all week etc. everyone is beautiful in their own way so embrace your beauty and show it off!!!
challenge three: adjust something in your diet (if you arent already following a plan) even if it is something little like cutting back your treats.
let me know how you go and i will be sure to let you know how i am going.
take care everyone xo
i hope you are all well and happy :)
on monday i went for a glucose tolerance test. the glucose drink that you have to down in 5 minutes was absolutely disgusting but i can say with much relief that i ado not have diabetes. phew! but in saying that- having pcos means you are at great risk of getting pcos so i am going to lose weight as a prevention.
i am starting a detox on monday- any girls who want to join let me know and we can do it together. i am doing it with a very nice friend of mine, sylvie which is comforting because i am a bit nervous about it all. i suck on diets- yet alone a detox. basically the detox (thanks to kristina who has given me all the awesome information) i am cutting out wheat, dairy, sugar and junk food for 2 weeks. it is a test to see if your body is sensitive to particular foods. but i am also doing it to relieve my poor body of all the crap i have put in it for the past few years. i should be treating it with more respect-since it is the only one i have and its not like a car which you can trade in a get a new one. i just have to keep restoring my body back to good health no matter what barriers i have or what excuses i try to use on myself.
challenge one: at least 30 min exercise every day next week
challenge two: find something you like about yourself and excentuate that feature eg. if you have nice eyes, focus on wearing some eyeshadow and some mascara all week etc. everyone is beautiful in their own way so embrace your beauty and show it off!!!
challenge three: adjust something in your diet (if you arent already following a plan) even if it is something little like cutting back your treats.
let me know how you go and i will be sure to let you know how i am going.
take care everyone xo
Thursday 17 March 2011
Life is short, why waste it on a bag of chips?
today we had a massive storm in Port Macquarie and because i am the ultimate worst case senerio thinker, i was pretty much ready for the disaster sirens to go off. i use to love storms but now with all the awful things happening around the world- they just dont seem too appealing anymore.
anyway, my mini panic attack brought on an epiphany. why waste my time being so uncomfortable in my skin, sitting at home alone eating my chips and chocolate, allowing myself to become another overweight/obese statistic in australia? why do these things when life is so short and i could be out there enjoying every day like it's my last. if i was to leave earth suddenly what footprint would i have left behind? what memories would people have of me? would i just be the chubby girl who was shy and didnt come out much-or would i be the foxy girl who laughed, danced and smiled alot and dressed like a rock star? i know that if i continue to eat the way i do- i will always be the chubby girl. suppressed by my own self loathing. is a bag of chips really worth it? i am starting to really think not.
there are so many things that i am too scared to do because of my size these include; swimming, running, eating in public, group outings, take photos, go clothes/shoe shopping etc... all these things seem so simple. but these small things are actually the things that i look forward to being able to do again. i feel so restricted in my own skin. and i feel like i am a skinny girl trapped inside a fat person's body.
but the good thing is- weight loss is achieveable. so why not take a risk and get a second chance to live your life the way that you want!
peace, love and happiness,
cat xooxoxoxoxoxooxoxoxoxooxxoxoxox
anyway, my mini panic attack brought on an epiphany. why waste my time being so uncomfortable in my skin, sitting at home alone eating my chips and chocolate, allowing myself to become another overweight/obese statistic in australia? why do these things when life is so short and i could be out there enjoying every day like it's my last. if i was to leave earth suddenly what footprint would i have left behind? what memories would people have of me? would i just be the chubby girl who was shy and didnt come out much-or would i be the foxy girl who laughed, danced and smiled alot and dressed like a rock star? i know that if i continue to eat the way i do- i will always be the chubby girl. suppressed by my own self loathing. is a bag of chips really worth it? i am starting to really think not.
there are so many things that i am too scared to do because of my size these include; swimming, running, eating in public, group outings, take photos, go clothes/shoe shopping etc... all these things seem so simple. but these small things are actually the things that i look forward to being able to do again. i feel so restricted in my own skin. and i feel like i am a skinny girl trapped inside a fat person's body.
but the good thing is- weight loss is achieveable. so why not take a risk and get a second chance to live your life the way that you want!
peace, love and happiness,
cat xooxoxoxoxoxooxoxoxoxooxxoxoxox
Wednesday 16 March 2011
emotional eating..the attack from sugar and carbs!
hellllo internet people,
how are we today? i hope you are all well :)
i am really struggling with the diet thing. it is so hard. i know i have a food addiction, i just dont know how to shake it off. i keep thinking to myself, today is a new day. i can do it...next thing you know i am eating a bag of chips. and i know that the more i eat, the more fuel i am giving pcos to take over my body/life. i wish i could just wake up one morning and i have that willpower/motivation to be a good healthy girl.
emotional eating is one of my weaknesses. ever since i became really depressed i just find myself eating more and more. and it would be nice if i could start eating lettuce leaves or carrot sticks when i am emotional eating-but the only thing that hits the spot is junk food. my sister sent me this quote one day- 'nothing tastes as good as thin feels' and i agree with that 100% but when you are feeling a bit down anyway, it's hard to pull yourself out of the vicious cycle of emotional eating. but i am sure that with time anything is possible. besides- women are warriors and we can do anything!! so if there are any other ladies out there who struggle with emotional eating i challenge you to find something positive to do in replacement of the binge eating. for me- i am going to put my ipod on and dance stupidly for half hour or so. what will be your emotional release? even if you have to do this replacement thing 100 times a day (i know i will)- do it and hopefully it will make you feel better not even more crappy like eating junk food does.
i have been a bit embarressed about sharing my weight and other details like that. but i am adding this little weight ticker thing, to show it in a more pleasant way.
see-i have a long way to go. but a girls gotta do what a girls gotta do.
take care everyone. talk to you tomorrow xoxoxox
how are we today? i hope you are all well :)
i am really struggling with the diet thing. it is so hard. i know i have a food addiction, i just dont know how to shake it off. i keep thinking to myself, today is a new day. i can do it...next thing you know i am eating a bag of chips. and i know that the more i eat, the more fuel i am giving pcos to take over my body/life. i wish i could just wake up one morning and i have that willpower/motivation to be a good healthy girl.
emotional eating is one of my weaknesses. ever since i became really depressed i just find myself eating more and more. and it would be nice if i could start eating lettuce leaves or carrot sticks when i am emotional eating-but the only thing that hits the spot is junk food. my sister sent me this quote one day- 'nothing tastes as good as thin feels' and i agree with that 100% but when you are feeling a bit down anyway, it's hard to pull yourself out of the vicious cycle of emotional eating. but i am sure that with time anything is possible. besides- women are warriors and we can do anything!! so if there are any other ladies out there who struggle with emotional eating i challenge you to find something positive to do in replacement of the binge eating. for me- i am going to put my ipod on and dance stupidly for half hour or so. what will be your emotional release? even if you have to do this replacement thing 100 times a day (i know i will)- do it and hopefully it will make you feel better not even more crappy like eating junk food does.
i have been a bit embarressed about sharing my weight and other details like that. but i am adding this little weight ticker thing, to show it in a more pleasant way.
see-i have a long way to go. but a girls gotta do what a girls gotta do.
take care everyone. talk to you tomorrow xoxoxox
Tuesday 15 March 2011
i should have said this much earlier...
i know i should have said this sooner and to be honest i have been ignoring the news because it all is just too sad to watch.
but my heart absolutely bleeds for what is happening in Japan. i hope that the nightmare will stop soon and the clean-up can begin for them (even though their hearts will be incredibly broken). it is just so sad :(
Mother Nature is a vicious lady at the moment it is really starting to freak me out.
take care everyone xo
but my heart absolutely bleeds for what is happening in Japan. i hope that the nightmare will stop soon and the clean-up can begin for them (even though their hearts will be incredibly broken). it is just so sad :(
Mother Nature is a vicious lady at the moment it is really starting to freak me out.
take care everyone xo
Monday 14 March 2011
support networks are so important.
hi everyone,
i hope you are all well and happy.
it is raining outside today, which is really nice since i love the rain. i actually got myself out of bed at 6am this morning when my boyfriend goes to work and i got myself and ziggy (my dog) ready for a walk. however, i was only able to do 5 minutes because it started pouring rain. but the thought was there, right? tomorrow night my partner and I are going to sign up for the gym so I will have no excuse not to exercise wihen i get a membership.
i wanted to write a bit today about support networks and how important they are when you are on a journey for weight loss. Of course you have to be proactive and take responsibility for your own actions. but that does not mean you have to go it alone. i feel so blessed that i have such an amazing family and wonderful friends who always have my back, and keep encouraging me to keep going, even when i feel like throwing in the towel. so if you have a group of friends who want to get fit start a little exercise group between yourself, or ask someone to go on a healthy eating plan with you so that you can be accountable for each other. i am such a sook, i hate doing things alone.
my mum sent me an email yesterday and she included a quote which i wanted to share with everyone.
If you want to be successful, you will be
It is better to have tried and only had minimum success than to never try at all
Past failures provide growth and new strenth to reach a new level of SUCCESS
don't know what i'd do without my mumsy.
anyway my lovelies, Ziggy wants to play ball so i better get off my butt and show him some attention.
i want to hear other people's stories so please contact me!!
i hope you are all well.
love,
cat xooxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxooxox
p.s here is a song that i love at the moment. i am a huge fan of the arctic monkeys :)
Sunday 13 March 2011
you don't have to be skinny to be beautiful.
hello everyone :)
so this is day 2 of my blog. i hope i am doing alright with the whole blogging thing.
i was planning on starting my diet today, however this morning, i had the horrid glucose test. and when i got home, i was that hungry i ended up stuffing my face with anything and everything in site. but thats ok. i can acknowledge that what i did was not ideal-however i am just starting out so of course i am not going to be perfect.
on a positive note, i have some awesome websites that have clothes for the plus sized lady. they are stylish clothes, which will not make you feel like a dag. No matter what size you are-you have the right to look and feel your best. here are some examples of some cute/sexy outfits that will make heads turn :). oh, and i must add here. i am not trying to promote these stores in anyway, i just want to share it with you because sometimes the whole weightloss journey can take some time but that doesn't mean you cannot look amazing in the meantime. the following collection i put together from a store called city chic for aussies- http://www.citychic.com.au/ for overseas http://www.citychiconline.com/. another really awesome store is www.torrid.com i am just happy that they make funky clothes for vuluptuous girls now.
another thing i wanted to talk about- is employment. when i first got really sick i had to give up my job and ever since i have found it hard to get back into the work force? has anyone else had this issue? for me, i feel that alot of it has to do with lack of confidence, and of course feeling so uncomfortable in my own skin. why does pcos have to create such a massive vicious cycle.
i have written a list of goals that i have set for the year. i want to share them with you, because i decided that when starting this blog i would be 100% honest with everyone. and at the end of the day, we are all in this together right?
take care everyone xoxo
so this is day 2 of my blog. i hope i am doing alright with the whole blogging thing.
i was planning on starting my diet today, however this morning, i had the horrid glucose test. and when i got home, i was that hungry i ended up stuffing my face with anything and everything in site. but thats ok. i can acknowledge that what i did was not ideal-however i am just starting out so of course i am not going to be perfect.
on a positive note, i have some awesome websites that have clothes for the plus sized lady. they are stylish clothes, which will not make you feel like a dag. No matter what size you are-you have the right to look and feel your best. here are some examples of some cute/sexy outfits that will make heads turn :). oh, and i must add here. i am not trying to promote these stores in anyway, i just want to share it with you because sometimes the whole weightloss journey can take some time but that doesn't mean you cannot look amazing in the meantime. the following collection i put together from a store called city chic for aussies- http://www.citychic.com.au/ for overseas http://www.citychiconline.com/. another really awesome store is www.torrid.com i am just happy that they make funky clothes for vuluptuous girls now.
i have written a list of goals that i have set for the year. i want to share them with you, because i decided that when starting this blog i would be 100% honest with everyone. and at the end of the day, we are all in this together right?
© to be about 60-65kg
© to be able to wear a swimsuit and feel comfortable wearing it in front others
© have my p.c.o.s under control
© to get married and look beautiful in my wedding dress
© to have a healthy body so i can have a healthy baby
© to fit into my old jeans that i once was able to
© to be able to dress the way i want and feel free to be myself
© to have confidence and not feel self-conscious in social settings
© to make Paul, Mum, Dad, Michelle, and all my friends proud of me
© to be able to jog and run
© to live a long and healthy life
© to have excellent health-both mental and pyshical
© to get depression and ocd under control so i can get off my meds.
© to not be afraid of photos so i can have photographic memories for the future
© to be a sexy/hot/attractive/gorgeous woman!
© to enjoy my twenties and not be locked up in a house or not being able to do the things i want to do
© to feel healthy, happy and fit!
© to stop snoring!!!!
although i have these goals in sight. i still don't know how to break my bad food/eating habits. i do not even know where to begin. i have such a long journey ahead of me- i hope i have the strength and will power to charge through all obsticles and become the healthiest i have ever been. take care everyone xoxo
a friendly introduction
hello everyone (i hope at least one other person reads this),
my name is Catherine and i have decided to write a blog about my weight loss journey. i am not really a motivated person, and i find it difficult fighting the war against binge eating but today (or tomorrow since i just had my last supper meal) i will be tackling the scary road of diet and exercise. everyone who knows me knows i love my food, so i am going to document my journey to show everyone that if i can do it-so can you.
so, a little bit about me- i am 24 years old, and i live in a lovely coastal town in NSW, Australia. i have a partner, Paul whom is a very healthy thin man, which drives me crazy because he can eat what he wants and not get fat! but i also know that i am very lucky, because he doesn't care if my jelly jiggles, he loves who i am as a person (and girls- this is the most important thing when in a relationship! if your partner does not love and accept you as you are now, he is not worth your time!). i also have a dog named ziggy whom is a jack russell cross human. i eventually want to start having a family (ok so i desperately want a family) but to do so, i need to lose weight and get my body functioning like it should again.
I was diagnosed with PCOS (polycystic ovary syndrome) several years ago when i was quite young, and since then i never really took it seriously. i always told myself that i would never put on heaps of weight, and i would never let myself get to a bad state, but of course (and anyone who suffers weight gain from a pcos symptom) would know that it very rudely creeps up on you and once you hit that point off complete uncomfortableness (yes i have created my own word), it is not easy to get yourself back to where you were before the weight gain.
I was also diagnosed with depression and OCD which i believe coincides with pcos itself. i even found an article about pcos and depression on the following link.
http://www.suite101.com/content/pcos-and-depression-a200092
i have been on medications since i was first diagnosed with depression/ocd/anxiety and i am hoping that through my weight loss, i will be able to gain confidence and with guidance from my doctor, slowly get off these very powerful drugs. so basically i want a complete body and soul Rejuvenation. time will tell if this can happen, but i will keep you updated.
i just want to say that to any woman/girl/male who is overweight, i know how you are feeling. i know what it's like to have skinny folk make their 'helpful' comments about your weight because they have your best interest at heart, and have those strangers- or sometimes even friends who look you up and down with judgement without even realising it. trust me-i have had it all in my time. and the saddest thing is that when a comment is made to us about our weight- it chips away a bit more at our confidence, and because i am an emotional eater- this makes me want to eat more hehe. but i want you all to know, that no matter what you are told, you are beautiful and only lose weight because you want to do it. not because someone else has told you to. i personally want to lose weight because of the following reasons:
- i feel really uncomfortable
-i love fashion and i cant dress the way i want to so i dont really feel like i am being true to myself
-i want to be healthy and i want to have children in the next year or so
-i want to live a long life just like my nanna!!!!!
this is my motivation at the moment..the reason i will really try my hardest to lose weight. and another important thing is DO NOT STARVE YOURSELF. consult your doctor who will refer you to a dietician. they will create a plan that is best suited to you and your needs.
if anyone is struggling with losing weight and the whole weight loss thing is too daunting, we can do it together! at the end of the day, us girls have to stick together :) i know that i have a HUGE battle ahead and i will have my good and bad days. but at the end of the day, noone is perfect. we just have to try our best.
take care lovely ones
love,
cat xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxooxooxxo
my name is Catherine and i have decided to write a blog about my weight loss journey. i am not really a motivated person, and i find it difficult fighting the war against binge eating but today (or tomorrow since i just had my last supper meal) i will be tackling the scary road of diet and exercise. everyone who knows me knows i love my food, so i am going to document my journey to show everyone that if i can do it-so can you.
so, a little bit about me- i am 24 years old, and i live in a lovely coastal town in NSW, Australia. i have a partner, Paul whom is a very healthy thin man, which drives me crazy because he can eat what he wants and not get fat! but i also know that i am very lucky, because he doesn't care if my jelly jiggles, he loves who i am as a person (and girls- this is the most important thing when in a relationship! if your partner does not love and accept you as you are now, he is not worth your time!). i also have a dog named ziggy whom is a jack russell cross human. i eventually want to start having a family (ok so i desperately want a family) but to do so, i need to lose weight and get my body functioning like it should again.
I was diagnosed with PCOS (polycystic ovary syndrome) several years ago when i was quite young, and since then i never really took it seriously. i always told myself that i would never put on heaps of weight, and i would never let myself get to a bad state, but of course (and anyone who suffers weight gain from a pcos symptom) would know that it very rudely creeps up on you and once you hit that point off complete uncomfortableness (yes i have created my own word), it is not easy to get yourself back to where you were before the weight gain.
I was also diagnosed with depression and OCD which i believe coincides with pcos itself. i even found an article about pcos and depression on the following link.
http://www.suite101.com/content/pcos-and-depression-a200092
i have been on medications since i was first diagnosed with depression/ocd/anxiety and i am hoping that through my weight loss, i will be able to gain confidence and with guidance from my doctor, slowly get off these very powerful drugs. so basically i want a complete body and soul Rejuvenation. time will tell if this can happen, but i will keep you updated.
i just want to say that to any woman/girl/male who is overweight, i know how you are feeling. i know what it's like to have skinny folk make their 'helpful' comments about your weight because they have your best interest at heart, and have those strangers- or sometimes even friends who look you up and down with judgement without even realising it. trust me-i have had it all in my time. and the saddest thing is that when a comment is made to us about our weight- it chips away a bit more at our confidence, and because i am an emotional eater- this makes me want to eat more hehe. but i want you all to know, that no matter what you are told, you are beautiful and only lose weight because you want to do it. not because someone else has told you to. i personally want to lose weight because of the following reasons:
- i feel really uncomfortable
-i love fashion and i cant dress the way i want to so i dont really feel like i am being true to myself
-i want to be healthy and i want to have children in the next year or so
-i want to live a long life just like my nanna!!!!!
this is my motivation at the moment..the reason i will really try my hardest to lose weight. and another important thing is DO NOT STARVE YOURSELF. consult your doctor who will refer you to a dietician. they will create a plan that is best suited to you and your needs.
if anyone is struggling with losing weight and the whole weight loss thing is too daunting, we can do it together! at the end of the day, us girls have to stick together :) i know that i have a HUGE battle ahead and i will have my good and bad days. but at the end of the day, noone is perfect. we just have to try our best.
take care lovely ones
love,
cat xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxooxooxxo
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