hello everyone,
how are you? I hope you are doing well and are achieving your goals :)
well it has been one week since i went under the knife (owie), I am starting to feel better day by day but i am still resting and not over exhausting myself. today I have a bit of shoulder pain and i am definitely feeling very bored. however the thing i am struggling with the most is how much i miss food. I am going through the motions something fierce. I guess food has always been my comfort so I am feeling all lost in the world without it. I know that life is going to get better and I will get over my reliance on food, but i still can't help the way i feel at this point in time.
when i am feeling depressed about it all, i go onto this website i love called www.polyvore.com and i create outfits that i will be able to wear when i am slim, toned and looking amazing. it is my thinspiration and what I am holding on to.
so whatever it is that inspires you- keep it close to you at all times.
love cat xo
my journey through weight loss and emotional rejuvenation. let's do this together!
Monday 27 February 2012
Sunday 26 February 2012
day 6 after operation
hello everyone,
how are you? well it is day 6 after the big operation, it has been a challenging time, but with the love and help from my mum things have gone smoothly.
when i woke up from getting the anaesthetic I remember groaning to the nurses 'what have I done?'. At that stage I was in so much pain, i honestly wished I was back to my normal life eating, and feeling sorry for myself. After a restless sleep (the fluid drip they gave me made me pee every 45 minutes) the surgeon came in an saw me first thing in the morning, i was a bit disappointed because he only stay a minute and then left without even saying goodbye, and then the anaestheist came in to see me and her conversation with me was 'it was really hard for me to give you the anaesthetic because of your size'...i was incredibly hurt by that comment especially since the reason whilst i was lying in that hospital bed was because i was trying to get help for myself. At that point I was reminded whilst I got the operation done. Despite the pain, and the huge cost- I am going to prove all those people who ever put me down and shattered my spirit wrong and I will do whatever I can to advocate for those who are struggling with their weight loss.
so anyway, it is day 6 and i am feeling much better. I do miss food, especially when i smell a bbq in the neighbours yard or i see my mum and boyfriend eating something tasty but i know that i will get over it with time. I weighed myself this morning and i was 130kg (a loss of 4.5kg) so my next milestone will be 120kg. just have to give it my all and do things by the book.
I promise to keep you updated.
never give up.
love cat xxoxox
how are you? well it is day 6 after the big operation, it has been a challenging time, but with the love and help from my mum things have gone smoothly.
when i woke up from getting the anaesthetic I remember groaning to the nurses 'what have I done?'. At that stage I was in so much pain, i honestly wished I was back to my normal life eating, and feeling sorry for myself. After a restless sleep (the fluid drip they gave me made me pee every 45 minutes) the surgeon came in an saw me first thing in the morning, i was a bit disappointed because he only stay a minute and then left without even saying goodbye, and then the anaestheist came in to see me and her conversation with me was 'it was really hard for me to give you the anaesthetic because of your size'...i was incredibly hurt by that comment especially since the reason whilst i was lying in that hospital bed was because i was trying to get help for myself. At that point I was reminded whilst I got the operation done. Despite the pain, and the huge cost- I am going to prove all those people who ever put me down and shattered my spirit wrong and I will do whatever I can to advocate for those who are struggling with their weight loss.
so anyway, it is day 6 and i am feeling much better. I do miss food, especially when i smell a bbq in the neighbours yard or i see my mum and boyfriend eating something tasty but i know that i will get over it with time. I weighed myself this morning and i was 130kg (a loss of 4.5kg) so my next milestone will be 120kg. just have to give it my all and do things by the book.
I promise to keep you updated.
never give up.
love cat xxoxox
Sunday 19 February 2012
lapbanding surgery...
well hello there to the internet universe.
how are you? how are you going with your pros? and your weight loss journeys?
As you know I have been struggling for so long with my weightless journey and the more i try, the more i seem to fail. SO... because i desperately want a baby and a healthy new life...I am taking some pretty drastic steps to try and get my health back on track. After seeing a gynaecologist last year and talking to him about my weight loss issues he suggested I try the lapband surgery...at first I was hesitant and resistive...I did not like the idea of weight loss surgery, but the more i tried to diet...the more I started to consider the idea of the lap band.
for anyone who does not know what the lap band surgery is. here is some info on it;
how are you? how are you going with your pros? and your weight loss journeys?
As you know I have been struggling for so long with my weightless journey and the more i try, the more i seem to fail. SO... because i desperately want a baby and a healthy new life...I am taking some pretty drastic steps to try and get my health back on track. After seeing a gynaecologist last year and talking to him about my weight loss issues he suggested I try the lapband surgery...at first I was hesitant and resistive...I did not like the idea of weight loss surgery, but the more i tried to diet...the more I started to consider the idea of the lap band.
for anyone who does not know what the lap band surgery is. here is some info on it;
Laparoscopic Gastric Banding Procedure is usually performed through small incisions in the tummy using a camera. This minimally invasive surgery usually results in less discomfort and time off.
During the 30-45 minute procedure, a Gastric Band, much like a wristwatch, is fastened around the upper stomach to create a small pouch which restricts the amount of food that can be consumed. In addition to the band, an access port, connected by tubing, is placed in the abdomen wall. This port allows for the size of the band to be increased or decreased with saline.
The Laparoscopic Gastric Banding Procedure does not involve cutting or stapling of the stomach or intestines, providing the option to reverse the treatment.
- Creating a sense of fullness. The gastric band presses on the stomach, which makes the brain think that the stomach is full and therefore requires no more food.
- Satisfying hunger sooner. The gastric band creates a smaller stomach pouch, so that less food is required to feel satisfied. Also, because the band has reduced the size of the passage through which food passes, it takes longer to digest
I am absolutely terrified about getting this procedure done, but I am also positive in the sense that I am willing to follow the rules and do what I am told. I get it done tomorrow so wish me luck...
i will keep you updated as soon as I am back on the road to recovery.
be strong and NEVER give up!
love,
cat xoxoxoxoxoxxoxoxo
p.s- i weighed in today at a whopping 134kg...i never want to see that number again!!!!!
Saturday 28 January 2012
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