eye of the tiger

hi everyone

i hope you are well. i have been so slack lately so i do apologise.

i have started a new job and it has taken it's toll on my energy levels. i feel so tired when i get home that i literally fall asleep straight away.

i had a terrible incident happen at work which i wanted to share because i know there are other girls out there who would have been put down because of their weight.
there was this tiny gap between the patients bed and the chair that the patient was being lifted onto and the lady who was suppose to be showing me the ropes wanted me to come on to the other side. i told her that i couldn't because i could not squeeze through the gap and she said 'well you're no use.you will be better use if you lost weight'. i was so shocked at the time that after my shift i sat in my car and cried. it wasn't just because of this lady that i felt upset- it was a reminder that when you are a bigger girl that is how people define you. you are no longer the 'girl with the dark hair, green eyes and pretty smile' you are simply 'the big girl'. its how society defines us and to be honest- it's very crappy! we should not be defined by our size or the things that are 'wrong' with us, we should be defined by our beautiful qualities- the ones that make us unique.

now that i have had my moment of getting upset about it, i have decided that i am just going to use this experience as fuel for my fire. i may be bigger than i would like to be- but i am also a good/kind person- where as she definitley lacks in compassion and empathy. she make me thin- but my smile is so much more sexier. and besides- one day i am going to be at my goal- and i am going to look flipping fantastic!!!

Paul and I have found a diet program that we both like and are therefore giving it a go. it's called body trim. http://www.bodytrim.com.au/ today is the first day on it, and so far we have gone alright. i think it makes it alot easier when you can do it with someone and can get that extra support. i am so greatful for Paul doing this with me. even though he is a skinny minny!!!!

basically the diet is protein based and i know there is a lot of skeptics on protein diets but for me it seems to be working and making me feel fuller for longer. you start off on a 3 day complete carb ellimination (protein only) but then you get more variety after that. you have to eat 6 times a day, and do a half our walk plus 10 000 steps of incidental exercise. i am not too sure how i am going to go on this. but i am going to give it a go. it is simple and easy to follow and when it comes to planning and organising my days, it will be so much better :).

i am a bit of a fan of the 'rocky' movies- i am a dork i know. but anyway, there is this quote which really stuck with me and i want to share it with you. because we all need a bit of strength, courage and determination when battling weight loss.

'it ain’t about how hard ya hit. It’s about how hard you can get it and keep moving forward. How much you can take and keep moving forward. That’s how winning is done'

lots of love to you all,

cat xoxoxo